For the last several years, the Notes app in my phone has become my journal. I have a passion for writing, but the thought of a journal always got in the way. Somehow, jotting down the words in the Notes was somewhat easier and satisfied by need for perfection with the ability to massage the words without markups. It allowed me to exert deep passion in my notes, and mull over the words to truly express my sentiment. To write it raw, with heavy emotion, then go back and refine it. Some 400 notes later, I’ve decided to start a blog.
Landing on a topic and a name for this blog was challenging. My “notes” range across a multitude of topics – from fostering to struggles to travel and more – and I didn’t want to limit myself from sharing about one of these topics. After deep thought, I concluded that every single thing in my life tends to lead to one topic: faith.
My faith has been a journey; I’ve had moments of extreme passion and times of deep sorrow. I led a dull life of lukewarmness for years, so rediscovering my faith gave me a vigor and passion to spread the good news and to serve my neighbor as Jesus would. I threw myself fully into service in every way possible, from becoming a foster parent, to leading a non-profit organization that helped bring young adults back to the faith, to finding a new job that prioritized missions, and more. To my discontent, I took a new turn in my faith journey, experiencing a spiritual desert where I knew I was being obedient but couldn’t feel God. Then, life drastically changed again, as I had to say goodbye to the little girl I loved dearly and finished my term as the organization’s president in the same week. For the first time in years, I found myself alone in the stillness. I’ve been sitting in the stillness for a few months now, soaking in the quiet moments and putting to use the newfound time on my hands. Such lives this blog.
This will be a lifestyle blog to an extent, highlighting my journey and emotions through various mission work, travel, foster parenting, and more; but it will all share the deeper theme of faith. Through bumps, failure, adventure, trial, joy and laughter, each moment of every day has been packed with lessons that have led me to my knees to God. My journey has been humbling. I seek to share my experiences with you to help you find the meaning in your daily journey, as well as expose you to the big, beautiful world God created. May we share in gratitude all that He’s truly provided that we tend to forget. Jireh=God will provide.
